Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be this for the wrong reason; as a means in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside. a course in miracles Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not consider whatever I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I’d in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.